you never treasure whats around you till its gone

well.. guess it has been a rough wk for all of us... for me.. it has been real tiring n stressful wk in poly n my exam is like in 1 mth time but the biggest shock was getting a sms from samantha.. at 1st when i saw her name i was happy until i read her message.. she is leaving for usa to study by this wkend.. the moment i read finish the sms.. my whole world seem to stop for tat sec.. i always knew tat she would 1 day leave for oversea but never this soon.. at least the earliest i though was after her A lvl..hazz.. it is so sad la or rather the word to used to sum up my feeling is regret... regret that i never spend enough time with her to know her better when she is around.. this trip she is going is at less 4 yrs n i dont even know whether is she ever coming back to spore.. that though kinda scare me.. hazz.. sometime when the bus pass by her place.. i would think wat is she doin rite now n hope tat everything is going well for her but after she leave.. that place would be empty..sigh.. i never though i would feel this way ever again for a gal since i got into poly or rather after wat happen with jo.. the gd thing was i went out with her yesterday but it was more like she accompanied me to dinner.. haha.. man does she look prettier now or maybe is it cos i know i might not see her again.. tat y i looked at her more.. well.. even knowing her for so long.. i was still nervous when i talked to her.. watever i wanted to say.. i would hav to say it once in my head be4 saying out to her.. haha..well..GOD sure hav a way to break me down.. dont get me wrong.. not tat it is a bad thing.. at least i know i still hav feeling cos i kinda got numb to it over the yrs n it has been a long time since my eyes were watery.. sad i will be tat she is leaving n knowing she might not ever come back but not for long.. life still got to go on.. at least i still got u jams around.. haha.. i thanx GOD every single day for having u jams as my bro.. to me.. it is the greatest gift ever tat HE has given me n it is something i hav learned to treasure.. i pray tat day would not come where i hav to experience the same thing as samantha with u jams cos it will really make me tear than all the teresa samantha rachel n sarah put together..

andrew