JAMS songs

ok, so i was bored and i searched the net for these few alphabet songs. and yes, a different background, again! i cant stop doing it; the perfectionist in me is just reaching out.
anyway, its a simple background. just a collage of photos, turned colourless and pasted together to a hopefully nice effect.


J song

Today I wrote a poem

And I put it in my book

It's about a certain letter

That's shaped sort of like a hook

It's a very special letter

And I like it quite a lot

The big one has a line on top

The small one has a dot

It comes at the beginning of a word like jellybeans

Or John, or Jane, or Jenny

Or a brand-new pair of jeans

You'll find it in the alphabet

Between the I and K

And if you haven't guessed by now

Well, it's the letter J

A Song

An angry alligator told an African ant,

"I will eat you for afternoon tea.

Unless you find a juicy apple for me,

I will eat you for afternoon tea."

Ant answered with his army

and a plan that would suit,

"Armed with arrows we'll attack the big brute."

Astonished alligator was an astronaut,

Airborne over an American Port.

M Song

Munch - I love munching on my melon.

Mmm - Mmm I love meat.

Mmm - Mmm the meal that I love most,

Is the meal my mother makes for me.

Munch - I love munching on my muffin.

Mmm - Mmm I love my milk.

Mmm - Mmm the meal that I love most,

Is the meal my mother makes for me.

S Song

Ya got a lotta curves

Ya got a lotta style

I especially like your S-profile

S, S, S, you're the best



You start words like "sail"

You start words like "sun"

You start words like "stop" when I'm on the run

S, S, S, you're the best



You've got no sharp points

You've got no straight lines

But when it comes to making words

You do just fine

S, S, S, you're the best

S, S, S, you're the best


ssss, i am the best.

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many many posts

sorry for the sudden influx of 3 posts in like within a time span of 3 hours. :P
i just added in four new songs to the blog.
anyway, feel free to ask for me to send the songs to you if you like them.
also, i updated the links, and some of the pics.
and the whole blog's become one grey patch. haha.
yup yup.
i'm like a real pro la.
haha. somebody pay me to do this!! :)

just gonna put the lyrics for one of the new songs up there. song for whoever. it's like this hilarious song which seems to reflect the life of jAMS. haha. check it out folks.

I love you from the bottom of my pencil case
I love you in the songs I write and sing

Love you because you put me in my rightful place
And I love the prs cheques that you bring

Cheap never cheap
I'll sing you songs till you're asleep
When you've gone upstairs i'll creep
And write it all down

Oh Shirley oh Deborah oh Julie oh Jane
I wrote so many songs about you
I forget your name I forget your name
Jennifer Alison Phillipa Sue Deborah Annabel too
Jennifer Alison Phillipa Sue Deborah Annabel too
I forget your name

I love your from the bottom of my pencil case
I love the way you never ask me why
I love to write about each wrinkle on your face
And I love you till my fountain pen runs dry

Deep so deep the number one I hope to reap
Depends upon the tears you weep so cry lovey cry cry cry cry

Oh cathy oh alison oh phillipa oh sue
You made me so much money I wrote this song for you
Jennifer Alison Phillipa Sue Deborah Annabel too
I wrote this song for you

spencer the poo poo head

super bad neck ache

time flies. initially i wanted to blog last week after the youth vs. adults match. got so much to blog, so little time.

aniwaez thank God for the soccer match. it was truly a fun match. i mean who doesn't like trashing your opponent? lolx.. we played well, and i look forward to the next season. would really like to thank U.mark for his dedication to the team. none of the matches would be posible without him. setting time aside to faithful plan the team, send to emails, which some ppl dun even bother to reply back to. kudos to u.mark for his great contribution! aniwaez good job team xyq! im proud of all of you. we shown the right spirit to push on further. though we've lost more games than we've won, i feel tt we're most victorious. we've succeeded in doing the main aim for the whole tournement, which is to bond the youth group together, to use this as an evagelistic tool, and we've have! look at the many testimonies, morgan spencer and wei han are prob the first which come to mind. but theres others, such as obaje, gabriel chen and wong, who've are now more active in church. xyq we've succeeded!

2 weeks more to prelims, 2 mths more to a's. manz.. time really flies. during one of my lectures i was thinking if life as juz passing day by day. then i dun think its really worth living. who care if u've all the money in the world? vainity! all is vainity! tts like solomon would say. i mean money at first would be exciting, but as time goes by, it would turn out to be a bore. i think God for a purpose He's given me. and i really can't wait to fulfill this prupose and go up to heaven. dun get me wrong, i love my life, God has blessed me with everything i need and theres nth i would wish for. maybe juz to continue to walk ever closer with God, and it follow His plan for my life. i've come to realise tt God noes how make our life exciting and yet peaceful, safe but yet not a bore. His plan is perfect and i also found out tt whenever i step away from His plan, i find life not worth living. without Him, im but a dust in the universe waiting for my time to end. thank God for God!!!

manz.. haven blogged for a week and i've got lots more to say. bare with me, won't you? ok, now come to reason for the tile of this blog. im having a really really bad neck ache, so bad i think its affecting my appetite. and to make it worst my arm muscles ache too, but tts because i've been training. aniwaez to all the readers, plz pray for me!! tt God would heal me fast!! and also for protection. lolx.. why? im going for accupuncure tml. well, needles and i dun go too well together. i hate things piercing my body, but if it'd tell this pain away, i would willing go for it.. i wonder if accupuncure is bad? like spiritually bad? whether it provides a doorway for spirits to come into my body. presonally i dun see anything wrong with it. its a science which the chinese have perfected over thousands of years. and if it works, why not? but maybe pamela seaward would beg to differ.

finally, the last topic which i wanna blog on. i mean there are other stuff, but none which i would ever put into the internet for anyone to read. lolx.. aniwaez, the last topic, studies! lolx.. God! PLZ MAKE ME INTO A MUGGER!! lolx.. my study break juz started, and i pray i can clock in bout 10 hours of quality revision each day.. but the word is 'pray'. whether i can do it? i doubt it.. but i muz try. aniwaez here a testimony.. for those who noe me, im bad at chem. and lately when i watch the discory channels on tv, its bout the topics which im learning i chem. its juz like my lecture note put into the tv! amazing izzit it? and somehow it shows when i turn on the tv. praise the Lord!

ok, i think it paragraph on studies is the shortest. no surprise aniwaez. lolx.. its late and i wanna sleep liao.. remember! plz poray for my neck! will testify bout it later!

chin slicing

spencer sliced his chinny-chin-chin today in a freak soccer accident.
he's now got a double chin.
he may needa go for stitches but he's scared of needles.
he can't wash his face properly cause han-ny says he shouldn't touch it.
kor kor dwayne he's still handsome though but more macho cause now there's gonna be a scar.
actually, the cut looks like a huge shaving accident. lol.
so much for starting work with a bang next week.

p.s. jay, drink more liquids, if you're still sick later, gimme a call and i'll drop by to check up on ya yea.

jamSSSSSS

ITS OVER!!!

finally.. my exams hav ended today.. it has been a crazy 2 wks studying for my exams.. but i can finally "party" man.. haha.. thanx jaMS for accompanying me during my studies, thanx ernie n caleb for ur messages n prayers.. it means alot to me.. last but not least thanx GOD for giving me strength n wisdom through my exams period..

there is nothing HE n i can't handle together..

jAms

messy messy messy

i got a huge crop of messy hair and i've no idea what am gonna do about it before the aptitute test tomorrow.
goodness, i cant believe i'll be totally in formal attire for one crazy, messed up test i've to do just to prove i can hold a pencil and write at the same time.
bleah. 4 days of work has proven uber dull and dreary.
the pay is good, the hours arent super long, but the type of work that is done is just plain nonsense.
picking up calls and diverting them along with filing papers and retyping several documents for publication. boo hoo.
i hate admin work. i really wish i could just move my feet around more.
oh well, cant complain, it could be worse.

spencer

new images

the layout's still the same.
but i've added new images, changed a few colour schemes and all.
wanted to make the background white, but decided on putting a photo of us when we were in sec 4.
i tried to make the picture as opaque as possible, but am not too sure if others will find it either too distracting or the entries too difficult to read.
soooooo, leave your comments on my taggy-boardy and i shall make any crazy, necessary changes wherever possible.

spencer

love you to love me

i havent been online for the last 3 nights and've been like totally tired out upon reaching home during those past few days.
eyelids heavy and throat sore, my level of accomplishment of late has been relatively little, though i know my hamstring's almost ended it's course of recovery and jAMs are studying in a relatively stress-free manner, relaxing me so much that i have come out of my stressed-out mode. wen jie's going off tomorrow, though not before hearing from him how he 'accidentally' blocked us on msn. power boy, that one.
sadly, i dun think he reads this blog anyway.

wei han wants me to change his pic for him and so does morgan.
the sad part of that statement being - i dont have enough pics of myself to put up on this blog.
the sadder part - i've more photos of JAMs then of myself to start with.
the saddest part - i cant find my camera

lets all not be sad.
what the world seriously lacks is love.
and what we needa give more of, is so.
the spirit of giving does not need to be only during christmas.
blessed i am to feel loved not just from God, but from JAMs and, indirectly, from my family.

spencer

i in your eyes

i read: i rather be hated for who i am, than be loved for who i am not.
i reflected.
i realised.
i thank you.
i thank GOD, for I am beautiful in your eyes.
i tried too hard, for things which are insignificant.
i tried to be superman.
i became too self-concious about how other see me.
i now know it doesnt matter to me anymore.

I have family.
I have JAmS.
I have church.

and most of all,
I have You. You make me stronger.

i dont care what i get for my exams.
i just have to make do the mistakes i have done.
i will do my best.

jaMs

guilty pinch

am feeling the pinch of a teeny weeny bit of guilt.
having to see morgan, jay and han study so much has invariably hit my books and bible.
my own fervency scares me and my want to stress myself as much as they are stressed is the only thing on my mind these days.
somehow, i miss pushing myself doing things i know i can rather than sit down for 10 hrs straight reading about some balmy old man talking about the sciences involved in sex education. dang media research.

so here i am, doing what i promised i'll never do again and actually hitting my a math, physics, e math, bio, chem, geog... etc and even my bro's literature and history books.
how proud the likes of chee and ah kiat will be of me now. the boy who couldnt even be coaxed to do one piece of homework is finally studying.
my new job starts next week - doing some admin work for rachel's (tks rachel) mum in dbs.
she's paying well, not asking for long hours and she's my dad's colleague.
and i still got the whole tuition thing in the works.
crazy companies taking so long to get back to me. am getting restless already.
i've actually stopped being lazy. this must be another nightmare.

bro's don't stress too much. jay, u need a good massage. i promise u one this saturday or sunday. han, u need less coffee and nasi goreng pattaya and more proper food and also, i think u're binging han. morgan, u needa think less of disturbing people while u're studying. lol.

oh yea, thanks charlene for all those contacts.
i met one rude lady though, who said i'd have better luck trying out doing toilet cleaning. haha.
but all the same, thank ya!!



spencer

exams.

haiz.
this semester is a terrible semester. i suffered so much stress and fatigue that i just want to run away and get my energy back. i am sick and tired of work. glad this days there is the 3 of you keeping me company, if only Jay was there. i miss hanging out with Jay. Jay dont worry prelims and A level will come and you will score well. i have faith in you.

anyway, exams is here and yet i am feeling so crappy. i have no mood to study and i am prepared, mentally that i would have bad results. i dont know. i am quite sick of studying already. maybe its just this period of time. all the late nights doing school work has finally taken its toll on me, has finally broke into this shell of mine. i am broken, tired of studying.

i am just glad i have my family and friends around me. they are so important to me.

i think i am too caught with work, i just need a break. i want to enjoy being with my family and friends.

thanks Jesus, I am blessed, you are magnificent.

morgan

neck ache

manz, im having this neck ache for 2 days liao.. i thinking its because of napha. or maybe i juz used a wrong pillow. wadeva it is, my neck hurts. i can barely turn it, and i cant carry anything heavy. aniwaez napha was a rather disspointment. should have taken it when i was fitter. din get 30pts. onli 28pt. i noe it like great for many others. but it din reach my target. then my 2.4.. manz.. onli 908.. sad manz.. im no longer superman, which to me is running under 830mins. oh well. after a's ill training harder. i wanna reach 7 plus mins. i noe i can..

aniwaez 3 more weeks to prelims. im feeling the pressure. God plz help me. and thanx for wen jie. he has been been a great blessing to me. tutoring me for chem. it has really boosted my motivation for chem.

it late. i gotta sleep. yet another week is gone. sometime i feel im onli pasting time, waiting for the day to go up to heaven. i wish its fast. not tt im not enjoying life now, but i noe tt heaven is so much greater. but i wonder how eternity is like. time is relative, but with eternity, theres no benchmark to measure time. so eternity could feel like a thousand years or one second. my heads cracking. nitez!

morgan morgan

poor morgan.
when he's happy, it's 'cause he's bullying us.
when we're happy, it's 'cause we're bullying him.
what are brothers for man.
peace brother for 6 years of you making fun of us, whatever the situation, whenever it happens.
for 2 days of seeing you scared outta your wits and utterly speechless is a lifetime of memory for us, though too bad jay was never there to enjoy it with us.
oh happy day, how i can sing man, how i can sing.
oh God, great you are. a fair and just God you are.
lol.
peace :)

spencer

fight against tyranny

against oppression, we have suffered, and with his iron fist rule over us, his people, we have suffered, crumbling slowly to becoming enslaved by this dictator.
no, it's not fidel castro(cuban prezzie) or Kim Jong Il(north korean prezzie).
we're talking about, Morgan Yeo Zhan Yao. :)
poor morgan had his finger, ego and nose crushed by us. one night of terror for him for yrs of suffering we have gone through.
being led by rebel leader, Li-ern aka Ernie, we have successfully overthrown him and we have established a new rule ver the land.
morgan yeo is currently on the run from his equally evil sister which he imprisoned years back.
all hail our freedom.
today, august 14th, will live as a day of freedom to our people, a day where God has shone his light on us, prevailing over the evil upon this land.
:)

p.s. this is all rather exaggerated.

spencer

tributes

thinking back at our ernie appreciation day, we kinda felt that it's necessary to have a time in tribute to all 'calvarites' and not just our dear ernie.
this is thanks for making not only our lives significantly better but also for strengthening the bond between the 4 of us.
every second spent with you guys is a second not wasted.
and a second worshipping God with you people is a lifetime of blessed happiness for us.
(i'm sorry if this post is super long :p)

lets see, we shall start our tribute with the 2 that initially made us seem like a family to the church.

Pastor Deaf-knee and Pastor Chair-d.
The first 2 we were formally introduced to and the 2 that have almost revolutionized the way we think.
They say acceptance comes in many forms, and despite our hesitance and reluctance to join Jay in church and devote our lives as a Christian initially, they made the transition so smooth and pain-free.
And it's not only the seriousness that we get kicks from. their fun and bubbly personalities have provided us with many laughs. from Jams getting his butt kicked or jAms and his single merry Melody. Things could get no better with both of ya around.

Next goes out to Jie Jie San-San.
Despite Jams claiming she's somewhat of a disciplinarian, we have come to respect her as more than that. She is like an older sister to us, even like a mentor at times. She adds to our understanding of God and instils faith within ourselves. There's no one comparable when it comes to being down-to-earth as compared to jie jie san-san.

Then there's Kor Kor Dwayne.
The singer, the actor, the all-rounder. We've all heard of people being a jack-of-all-trades, and a master of none. But with Dwayne, it's kinda different, he's a master of all that he does. His God-given creative talents continuously amaze us and really make us praise the works of God and the things he can do for us all.

Who could forget, Kor Kor Gary, Aka The Coach.
From being a master tactician to a player of words, his capabilities in both fields have left us speehless. a lawyer-cum-soccer coach? who'd ever imagine that? his beautifully taken goal struck into the top corner of the net and his endless distributions have also shown the player side of him and he no doubt strikes us as an indispensable presence, which we have been blessed to have in our lives.

And then there's :

Ernie.
is there anymore to say we haven't already stated? ernie's a hot chick la.

Yang.
our new opera estate street soccer kah-kee. power la this guy. his marking is watertight and his passing crisp. a pity his back is still slightly injured. but God will completely heal him in no time and he'll not only be able to play again but he'll be better than ever. a real friendly dude who took care of us when we first came is and really made us very comfortable. we duly thank his care and concern for our well-being, and will seek to help him in suan-ing his beloved sister. :)

Aaron.
The talented guitar-playing, break-dancing dude and of course our dearly beloved BS teacher and one half of the Choys. Aaron's joking and heartfelt persona has really struck us hard, influencing us to the same level of commitment he posseses. these qualities don't just appear on the soccer field but even during worship sessions whereby he just pours his heart and soul out and touches individuals as he does so.

Caleb.
The other half of the Choys. It's hard to believe the stories of Caleb and how much he's changed overtime. Caleb is a walking testimony and example of what it is like to be an exemplary Christian. Through Caleb, we have another prayer to illuminate our hearts each and everyday. without a doubt, Caleb brings about a whole new dimension of fun and he has really taken us well into his care and with him around, only faith exists.

Jason.
Another talented guitarist and equally gifted winger. Jason is another walking testament of faith and the power of our Lord Almighty God. with him around, the sadness feels non-existent and all you feel when he has a guitar in hand is the music flowing through your soul. Jason is the soul and in his guitar, it shines the brightest.

Uncle Mark.
Possibly the most humble man we will ever have the pleasure of meeting. he has aided us in constantly quelling our tempers and preventing us from blowing our tops. his calm disposition has gotten out of tight situations and it is really our greatest wish that he gets to play in the last match of the tournament, as a tribute to him for truly being a great man.

Obaje.
From the funky hair-do to the craziness this boy exudes, you'd think he were a little bit mental. but far from the truth is the strength and tenacity this bull posseses. from his inability to feel physical pain to that wry smile always smudged on his face or even his chiselled abs, he's not one to mess with.

Gab. Wong.
The woah-ho-ho right back with the equally cool doctor mum. despite his size, he packs a real mean tackle. his capability of taking on people twice his size and winning the ball with one sweeping tackle really just removes all doubt we initially had. a real poet outside the field and his intelligence is off the charts too. but despite all these, he remains humble and has ensured that his heart does not stray away from God. in him, the future is there.

Andrew.
Our beloved Andrew whom we all just love to talk crap with. Your Oreo cheesecakes and insatiable hunger always just gives us the laughs. Andrew is forever jumping about, never stopping for even a breather and has really breathed life into our lives. Andrew's like the absolute charmer and really has a knack for sports. He seems to excel in that what he does, and he'll continue to do so in God's presence.

Joe Ho.
Why does Calvary have so many intelligent people? Joe is another creme de la creme when it come to that and he, despite his age has shown maturity beyond his years not only on the soccer pitch but in the way he handles situations that come his way as well. Joe's sweet tooth has really shown itself consistently as well. haha. the first time we saw Joe was when he was playing with his Rubix cube and back then, he struck us as a gifted scholar. haha. well, we weren't THAT far off eh? but as time had it's way, Joe has really been a consistent friend and we assure you Joe, you have a bright future ahead.

Joel and Lincoln.
The 2 of you are like magicians extraordinaires. you guys got talent man. and not just in magic but in other aspets of the things you do too. i know in soccer, you both can really excel and with the hearts that you both possess, you will always find an undiminished deterination in there.

All these people have someway or another have helped change the way we behave. There're others not mentioned here as well, such as siva, rachel, rachelle, joshua, becky, abel, denise, charlene, cheryl, etc. but believe me, we'll bake u guys cookies. :p

Jay Ong
Andrew Tay
Morgan Yeo
Spencer Ong

whee

first u start off the day having to wake jAMs up. then u pull your hamstring again during a soccer tournament at st. pats.
the spelling of a bad day right?
WRONG.
turns out, everything turned out niiiiiiicccccccccccceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee today.
i won't divulge anything, 'cept that i'm happy.
and high.
and i look like am drunk again.
haha.
and oh, han, today was a great day for tanning.
:)
i'm red now, gonna be brown tomorrow.
so exciting!!
Pastor Chad's message had a significant impact today.
although what really surprised me most was my level of concentration during service.
i remember the times when i used to have lectures and i would just sleep through them.
but somehow, in church, i feel a whole new level of invigoration. nuts.
i gotta channel this energy into other places too.
one more thing, decided to put this up.
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pang pang

i've been growing increasingly frustrated at everything that has been happening.
i'm tired and all this emotional pang-ing has been let loose on everyone else around me.
i've grown numb to the words that come out of my mouth and i'm starting to forget about those who genuinely care for me.
this dulling of my mind has affected my ability to think and i seriously doubt the concensus of my own sanity right now.
things at home are not fine and even more so, getting increasingly frustrating as it is.
it's hard to concentrate in God in times like these but i've really been trying to.
i've put myself in my own solitary confinement at home, away from my laptop, tv and other things; with just a bible in hand.
i do this for almost the whole day 'cept for an hour whereby i blog.
i apologise if i've been replying messages late or not at all as my phone has been unconditionally placed away from me till i un-pang myself.
the memories which i laid to waste are again back to haunt me.
i only wish that that's all they are; memories.

p.s. i think i've corrected the stupid error with the blog layout. tag if there're still anymore issues.

s

Your light will shine when all else fades

O Jesus, i want to thanx YOU for everything.. for the ppl around me like JaMS, ernie, san san, pastor daphne(deaf-knee) n kor kor Dwayne.. for they always seem to be able to cheer me up whenever i'm down.. Jesus i want to thanx YOU too for showing me tat ur always there for me no matter.. though sometime i can never understand y certain things the way it is.. i pray tat u will give me strength to face it n let me know ur there with every step i take.. lead me Lord n walk beside me for the earthly things hav left me dry inside n i dont want to run away anymore.. Jesus ur everything to me n let me be every little things u ever wanted me to be.. i love Jesus n thanx YOU for everything..

andrew

it just gets better

overnight prayer was fantastic. i truly enjoyed myself so much. though i feel asleep after the break but i really tried my best to stay awake, my eyes were just too heavy. but seriously, before the break, it was just so powerful. i really really enjoyed myself and that really lifted my spirit and i was enjoying myself in the presence of God. the songs they sang have just been ringing in my head ever since.

also i would like to thank everyone in church, every single one for making me feel so comfortable and at home in church. i used to go to new creation church and i felt so foreign there. but coming to calvary i really feel so comfortable, i am able to just relax and be myself. and i would want to thank everyone for being so ultra friendly. Jesus really planned for me to come to church and meet you guys, before coming to calvary, i went through a time of life where i could not trust anyone other that JAmS. everyone seemed so superficial, been through and known of so many people who were just hypocrites, people who are not what they seem to be, and the thing is that i knew what there were doing behind my back, but i doubt they knew. however, ever meeting you guys, i am begining to the trust in people, opening up to them.

there is nothing the Lord cannot do.

zhanyao

i forgive them

oh Lord, plz take away all offence in my heart. tt i may forgive them as you forgave me. help me to love them as i love myself and bless them Lord. oh Lord, give me strength, tt i may be removed so far from offence tt i risk being taken advantaged of again. but if ever i get taken advantage of again, may i cling to You, as my shield, as my refuge, as my source of everything. oh Lord, vengence is yours, and so i lift my burden to you. take away this weight around my neck, tt i may be free to do Your work, and worship Your blessed name.
Amen.

Jams

return of the pooh

another dream from last night.
only it didnt involve pooh bear this time.
it was the striped beast, tigger.
argh.
he was like a crazy, hyperactive, seemingly drugged, stuffed, oversized, tiger-looking pogo stick.
he kinda shaked the ground with every bounce he took and kinda eventually managed to catch me and bounce me six feet under after some time.
i woke up with a huge shock, realizing that every single thing was flung all over my room, leaving me only clinging to my bedsheet.
sigh.
i needa find out where these nightmares are coming from.

spencer.

Vincent

Vincent

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you, Vincent
This world was never meant
For one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn, a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will...

For Morgan

changes

i've put new music, but blogger keeps crashing when i try to change the photos.
so that will be done another day.
since morgan is at a chalet, he will have at least 3 songs on tribute to him.
vincent by don mclean, every little thing by dishwalla and there is none like you.
JAY LOST HIS BET. ALL WANNA KNOW WHAT HE HAS TO DO?!?!
WONT TELL BUT YOU'LL KNOW BY SUNDAY.
heh.
i love secrets.
i never knew IT work was so time consuming.
i've been on dreamweaver and photoshop all day and it's starting to take it's toll on me.
wish pooh bear'd sit on me now. would do me a right good massage in the lower back.
eh, han, blog.

spencer

popping popiahs

spencer is a horribly irritated boy with an equally disgusting pouting face at the moment.
he managed to put up the song onto the crazy blog, but it can only be heard through internet explorer.
so for people who use firefox, like spencer, use IE to view the blog at it's maximum.

anyway, today was wen jie's 'surprise' party. i think what happened during the party took us more by surprise than it did to him.
having to read a fav. verse from the bible didnt serve well for alot of people. i was this close to reading John 11:35 and explaining alot of crap.
but lucky, i'd another set of verses that sounded nicer.
the popiah's not agreeing with my stomach now.
toilets beckoning.

dunkin' duncan.

shingle-d

i've been shingle-d. ARGH!!!
the red spots on my back turn out to be something called shingles, a more painful, more itchy, less contagious strain of chicken pox.
apparently, people who've gotten chicken pox before can't get it again, so they get shingles instead.
the funny bit about it though, is that if u touch the liquid when it's burst, the liquid can cause the person to get chicken pox and not shingles.
the doc also says that i might get occasional fevers, which might explain the pooh bear nightmare.
die ah die. the itch is torturing me and the pain is killing me.
time to go take my medicine again. bleah.
i hate you shingles.

spencer

why the rush with life?

everywhere i go i see ppl rushing. in skool i see my classmates rushing everywhere they go, even for recess. im not saying be late for class and not too be early. its always good to be puncual, and being early gives you time to revise and set your mind to study-mode. but always rushing. no time to appreciate things in life. even when i play soccer, ppl are rushing juz to score the score. wad happened to appreciating the beautiful game. joga bonito, play beautiful. dun juz kick the ball from one end to the other.

i dun think God created us to live life in a hurry. He made it so we can appreciate Him, and have a relationship with Him. i take adam & eve as an example, cuz i feel they the ideal way God wan us to live life. in no hurry, afterall they were supposed to live forever. juz most importantly juz having the great time with God, walking so closely with Him. plz dun get me wrong here, there are times and situations which require some urgency. i feel we,including myself, should learn to be more patient. i wait for God's timing for everything to happen. juz imagine a wonderful art piece falling into place as plan, but most how we tend to rush things and get it all messed up. i too should learn tt, and wait so some stuff, you noe.. lolx.

aniwaez im really beginning to appreciate life so much more. inspite of all the hectic study timetable and revision, i thank God of everything. i juz watched this movie bout the 1994 genocide in rwanda. wow it really makes u love ur life. thank God for singapore, tho' stressful and ppl may complain bout some stuff, juz look how sheltered we are.

God's perfect timing,
Jams

take me away.

please take me away.
away from all this.

away from work.
away from school.
away from terrible people who says terrible things about me.
away from stress

bring me closer to you.

closer to Jesus.

i want to go church. i want to go play soccer.

i had a terrible day today, started off badly, and its gonna end just as bad.
i am contemplating to go for a 6 months attachment.
please advice me, speak to me Jesus.


Forgive me, for i have sinned.
Your words, Your grace, keeps me going.
morgan

jay's handsome photo

i've changed jay's photo but something's a little wrong with the alignment and i can't get the system to work properly, so i guess i will try again tomorrow or maybe just use dreamweaver to correct the fault.

anyway, i'd a weird dream last night.
and don't worry han, u didn't die in it this time and neither was i driving any potentially life-threatening vehicle.
in fact, the only life in danger was my own.
i dreamt of winnie the pooh sitting on me.
i know. he apparently thought i was piglet and chased me down something that looked vaguely like the hundred-acre wood (though not as cartoon-y)
anyway, i woke up (after pooh had finally caught me and was testing whether i made a comfy armchair) falling off my bed with a small lump on my head. ARGH. stupid pooh bear.

the rash on my body's getting worse. i now have 3 sets of spots with a fourth one coming up. once itches, one hurts, one is very gross looking and one is very red. die la die.

duncan.