scary scary yet not scared

water in swimming pool not scary anymore.
now only scared scared of water in big big ocean.
intensive swimming routine has been helping of late and i think my tan looks to stay as well,
but i'm starting to feel increasingly lethargic and twitchy.
sigh.
i wanna go bake cookies.

spencer

street soccer shoes

i luv my new street soccer shoes manz. yeah!! thanx ps chad.. this great! cant wait to play with you guys using these shoes..

decline

i think i am declining.
no no
i know i am declining.

i am decling in:
soccer
studies
energy level
life
concentration
almost everything.

i think its because of my high level of commitments. i want to learn to say no.

HOWEVER,
the things that are improving are:
JAmS
family
JESUS CHRIST (most important)

outside me i am declining.
inside me i am strong because i am blessed with them.

i have also not lost my fighting spirit. i will go on continuing to fight.


i love you Jesus for blessing me.
morgan

rashed

bros, i think there's something up with the rash on my back, cause it's spreading.
it's starting to itch quite badly and it hurts even when i dun touch it.
ok, enough of the gross-ness.
you know bros, i just realise how we almost can't do without each other, how we have tried going through things alone and always come out of them rock bottom.

i wonder, is this God's way of saying, 'you have to learn to trust your bestest bros first before you can understand that if you put your faith in Me, I can do all for them and you'

-From The Inside Out-

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

this song never ceases to touch me.
every line has it's meanings, every line it's significance.
it just releases memories from times ago and emotions bottled up deep within.
sigh. i'm back to thinking of mel again. up till now, i still feel i let her down.

pencil

the best days of my life

sorrie guys. i promised a victory but i din get one. will do better next time. its a learning experience and frankly they were the better team. tho' we managed to hold them during the first half, it was juz a matter of time till they scored. not to worry, we are improving. it doesnt matter whether we win or lose, the most important is tt we're improving. and we will win them next time we meet!

aniwaez yesterday i was juz thinking of the many memories which have been crafted into my memory, all the fun, stupid, good and bad things which have happen in my life and i thank God for the many blessings He has showered over me. friends, best friends and bros He was blessed me with to play and pray together. this is truly the best days of my life. i dunno whether, when i grow up, i could continue having so much fun, doing crazy stuff and living life to its fullest and tts why im so grateful for 'now'. where i am, how i am and who i am. i juz pray i would continue to walk in God's plan for my life, cuz onli then would i enjoy the fullest of His blessing on me. tho' skools difficult now, and getting more and more stressful, and sometimes i wan something so much but things dun go my way. i lack nth. God is my provider. and surely He has provided me with so much. all tt i need is taken care for

thank you for being part of the best days of my life. yes you! the one reading this blog now. thanx for being part of my life. thank you for making things as it is now. thank you God for your perfect plan for me.

and btw hanny, its 13th man.. the 12th man is the manager.

the 12th player

all for one.. one for all.. i did badly too.. keep on giving away the ball.. could not control the midfield.. i wanna to say.. the cheer team was great.. u guyz n galz were there from the start to the end.. even when we were losing.. they always said tat the fans is like the 12th man.. i never get to expreience until today.. u ppl were really rocking the field.. too bad we cant give u ppl something happy to cheer abt..

sorry..

andrew

:(

and if i were stronger and taller, i wouldnt have allowed the fella to push me and make me head the ball backwards.
sigh.
and if only my passes were better.
sigh.
i played like crap today as well.
:(

spencer

-

sorry guys, if i played better, didnt hit the post, had better touches, we could have scored earlier in the game and won.


i dont know.

morgan

keep holding on

i need a break.

the only things keeping me going is church, soccer and JAmS. thats why i cant wait for the weekends. exams are coming, the work just keep piling and increasing.

I am attached to OCBC main building for attachment during the holidays. I am so happy at least Jesus planned and make sure i got such a good road. Praise Jesus.

I work hard, i give everything i got whenever i do something. its so tiring. maybe i should learn to say NO. someone can you teach me. please.

it just not getting better.

come on, sing mocking bird.
you dont affect me.


morgan

diarrhoea

eh, jia lat, i'm having diarrhoea now man.
it took me like 20 mins just to type the first line cause i was in and out of toilet half the time.
i think it was the curry puff. either that, or it was the mee goreng, chee kueh, mee pok or nasi lemak.
uh-oh, i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
anyway, we're gonna win against emmanuel and depending on what position i'll be playing, help jay score or prevent them from scoring.
eh bros, i think i found a bald patch on my head.
eh, pray that i won't start looking as though i have a halo of hair around my head.
oh yeah, one more thing before i return to the toilet, jay, i've finished half the bible already. haha.
be proud of me. i've been reading it like at least 12 hrs a day.

spencer

in skool

hey.. im in skool.. 3 mins till lunch is over. cant wait for sat. have been thinking bout it alot. gonna make up for the loss last week. i promise to everyone who read this. i will lead xyq to victory against emannuel!! i wil do my veri best i can do. come on guys! we can do it!!

Jams

late

it'a rather late. 1.45 am actually.
my head's starting to feel heavy and the usual fogginess is starting.
my energy's depleted and i can barely keep myself awake.
my bible's astrewn on my bed as my laptop screen provides the little bit of light that illuminates my wrinkled face which reflects on my screen.
the droopy eyelids are a constant reminder of constant insomnia and therefore little sleep.
i can hear the winds rushing through the trees and crickets chirping in the night air.
the stars hang dimly overhead as the clouds go in to quell the last bits of light from them.
i slowly think of the people who've already said goodnight to me in the past 3 hours.
from the bros, to ernie, to a whole host of other people.
well, i've been left alone, with a blog as reminder that i'm not alone and niggling thoughts of the issues bugging my heart.
the tide's changing. it's off with me.

(i just wanted to make this post sound more poetic. bleah. failed horribly.)

p.s. do this. http://kevan.org/johari?name=spencerong

spencer

i love you Jesus

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morganyeozhanyao

from my dearest dwayne.

“He never said that there’ll only be sunshine, He never said that there’ll be no rain. He only promised a heart full of singing, of the very things that once brought pain. Give them all, to Jesus, Shattered dreams wounded hearts, broken toys.. and He’ll turn your sorrows into joy.”

Psalm 40
1 I waited patiently for the LORD;he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,out of the mud and mire;he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.
5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done.The things you planned for us no one can recount to you;were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.
6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire, but my ears you have pierced;burnt offerings and sin offeringsyou did not require.
7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come— it is written about me in the scroll. [d]
8 I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart."
9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly;I do not seal my lips, as you know, O LORD.
10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;I speak of your faithfulness and salvation. I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly.
11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD;may your love and your truth always protect me.
12 For troubles without number surround me;my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart fails within me.
13 Be pleased, O LORD, to save me; O LORD, come quickly to help me.
14 May all who seek to take my life be put to shame and confusion;may all who desire my ruin be turned back in disgrace.
15 May those who say to me, "Aha! Aha!"be appalled at their own shame.
16 But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you;may those who love your salvation always say, "The LORD be exalted!"
17 Yet I am poor and needy;may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; O my God, do not delay.

thanx kor kor dwayne.

GOD given sister

Dear ernie,
ur really a very nice n sweet person ( no wonder my flu never recover) LOL n ur beauty is skin deep .. i would like to thanx u for everything... even thought we know each other for such a short time, it seem like i hav known u for yrs.. u never fail to chat with me online whenever u get the chance n i want thanx u for it cos u juz make my day look gd no matter how bad it is.. haha.. i want to thanx u for ur teaching (like how to get to the bus stop early n say hi) LOL.. jokes aside.. thanx u for showing me tat i'm stronger than i seem.. thanx u for teaching me how to trust again... i hardly trust ppl easily in such a short time expect for JaMS n GOD.. ur really a GOD given sister to me.. there r still so many things i wanna thanx u abt.. but i'll stop here if not later all the gals get jealous of u.. i'm worry abt ur safety u see.. LOL.. ( i'm sooo dead boy) .. lastly.. i like to say a big THANK YOU to GOD for giving me such a nice sister to bully.. AMEN.. haha.. =p

andrew

boredom makes you do this

1 - FULL NAME - Spencer Ong Yan Hao
2- NAME BACKWARDS - oaH naY gnO recnepS
3 - WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE - Sir Winston SPENCER Churchill
4 - DOES YOUR NAME MEAN ANYTHING - Erm. Administrator?
5 - NICKNAME - Spencie, Spencery, Spencerina, Pencil, Cancer, Panties ...
6 - SCREENNAME - Spencer
7 - D.O.B - 28 December 1988
8 - PLACE OF BITH - Mt. Elisabeth
9 - NATIONALITY - Singapourien
10 - CURRENT LOCATION - Siglap
11 - STARSIGN - Capricorn
12 - RELIGION -Christian
13 - HEIGHT - 1.62 m
14 - WEIGHT - 52kg
15 - SHOE SIZE - 7
16 - HAIR COLOUR - black
17 - EYE COLOUR - hazel brown
18 - WHAT DO YOU LOOK LIKE - my reflection
19 - INNIE OR OUTIE - outie
20 - RIGHTY OR LEFTY OR AMBIDEXTROUS - more right. but because of my 3 bros, ambidextrous
21 -GAY , STRIAGHT, BI OR OTHERS - Straight
22 - BEST FRIENDS - Morgan, Jay, Andrew
23 - BEST FRIENDS YOU TRUST THE MOST - Morgan, Jay, Andrew
24 - BEST FRIENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX - Kelly
25 - BEST BUDDIES - Morgan, Jay, Andrew
26 - BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND - erm. no
27 - CRUSH - erm. i rather not mention
28 - PARENTS - a pair
29 - WORST ENEMIES - myself
30 - FAVE ONLINE GUYS - Morgan, Andrew, Jay
31 - FAVE ONLINE GIRLS - Becky, Kelly
32- FUNNIEST FRIENDS - Andrew(short), Andrew(tall), Jay, Morgan
33 - CRAZIEST FRIENDS -Morgan, Andrew, Jay
34 - ADVICE FRIEND - Morgan, Andrew, Jay
35 - LOUDEST FRIEND - nowadays, Andrew
36 - PERSON I CRY WITH - God
37 - ANY SISTERS - zip
38 - ANY BROTHERS - 2 younger ones
39 - ANY PETS - refer back to the previous question
40 - ANY DISEASES - height deficiency
41 - A PAGER - erm. no.
42 - A PERSONAL PHONE LINE - i'm not putting my number up here
44 - A LAVA LAMP -dont own one
45 - A POOL OR HOT TUB - Hot tub. scared of drwoning in a pool
46 - A CAR - i rather be driven. just not by ernie. haha.
47 - DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY - i've the personality of a 12 year old
48 - DRIVING - soon
49 - CAR OR ONE YOU WANT - i'll stick to walking
50 - ROOM - living room
51 - WHATS MISSING - homeliness
52 - SCHOOL - opera estate pri, tks, temasek poly
53 - BED - my couch
54 - RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENTS - could be better
55 - BELIEVE IN YOURSELF - no
56 - BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT - never
57 - CONSIDER YOURSELF AS A GOOD LISTENER - objective/relative
58 - GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS - still could be better
59 - SAVE YOUR EMAIL CONVOS - of course
60 - PRAY - learning
61 - BELIEVE IN REINCARNATION - nopes
62 - LIKE TO MAKE FUN OF PEOPLE - who doesnt?
63 - LIKE TO TALK ON THE PHONE - love it.
64 - WANT TO GET MARRIED - yeps
65 - LIKE TO DRIVE - if you count driving people nuts
66 - GET MOTION SICKNESS - yes
67 - EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI - yeps
68 - EAT CHICKEN FINGERS WITH A FORK - yeps
69 - DREAM IN COLOUR - lol. no
70 - TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON HOMEROW - i can. but i dont
71 - SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL - of course
72 - RIGHT NEXT TO YOU - my couch
73 - ON THE WALLS OF MY ROOM - reminder of where i live
74 - ON MY MOUSE PAD - hair
75 - YOUR DREAM CAR - Fred Flinstone's Car
76 - YOUR DREAM DATE - Charlize Theron
77 - YOUR DREAM HONEYMOON SPOT - on some ulu destination
78 - YOUR DREAM HUSBAND OR WIFE - as long as she's shorter than me. lol.
80 - UNDER YOUR BED - my diary
81 - THE SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT QUESTION - was that me or you?
82 - YOUR BAD TIME OF THE DAY - mornings
83 - YOUR WORST FEARS - WATER
84 - THE WEATHER IS - unable to be read
85 - THE TIME - 2053 hrs
86 - THE DATE - 24 july 2006
87 - THE BEST TRICK YOU HAVE EVER PLAYED ON SOMEONE ELSE - =)
88 - THE WEIRDEST FOOD OR DRINK THAT YOU LIKE - Ginger
89 - THEME SONG - Five For Fighting's Supermanme' with the guys

96 - THE WORST FEELING ON EARTH - emptiness

97 - THE BEST FEELING ON EARTH - love

90 - THE HARDEST THING OF GROWING - is to not be growing aka me
91 - YOUR FUNNIEST MOMENTS - cross dressing
92 - YOUR SCARIEST MOMENTS - drowning
93 - THE SILLIEST THING YOU HAVE SAID - i love you
94 - THE FUNNIEST AND MOST DESPERATE THING YOU HAVE DONE TO GET THE ATTENTION OF THE OPPOSITE SEX - blush
95 - THE SCARIEST THING THAT HAPPENED WITH YOUR FRIENDS - Playing 'Do u trust me' with the guys
96 - THE WORST FEELING ON EARTH - emptiness
97 - THE BEST FEELING ON EARTH - love

refreshed

to the other ppl reading this blog,
fyi i do come here often. everyday in fact. im juz not as expressive as the other guys.

to jAMS,
though i may not express it so much and as well as you do, you noe i love you.

aniwaez, i thank God for the weekend. a time a be refreshed from the stress at skool and studies, though i still do revise during the weekends. church is juz wad i need and now i much more refreshed. to add it off, being with all my friends and playing soccer juz puts the icing on the cake (or like andrew would say,"the oreo on the cheescake.") im still haunted by the game. should have scored the 1-on-1 chance and sercure our win. but instead i wasted it, and it resulted to our defeat. sorrie guys.. aniwaez gtg liao. hafta study liao..

take care bros
and to the rest,
dun be so kpo and read our blog. do sth more fruitful like reading the bible!!

ernie appreciation day

This is Ernie.
Efficacious
Reliable
Noteworthy
Intelligent
Ever-present
Ernie is OUR special friend. and this is our tribute to her. a toast. for the one
and only.

spencer

Dear Li ERN

Dear Blackie Sister,

thank you so much for taking care of me and also guiding me in church and all. you made me feel more at home and at ease. and though i always make fun of you, i really thank you for being so nice and caring.

talking to you is really funn and its quite interesting at times. and also i forgive those times when you keep making fun of me. its okay.

we shall hang out soon alright. the few of us. and we will spend our time making fun of spencer, wei han and jay yeah..

god bless you and he has bless me for finding a good friend in you.

best fiend,
morgan

tears

it has been a powerful weekend for us jams.. it has been a long time since we last cried this much.. GOD really touched and open us up from the inside out.. we jams are the kind who always keep all the sad stuff to ourselve n not want ppl to worried for us.. tat y it was gd tat we all had a gd cry.. to cry it all out.. GOD is making us jams better guys.. in order to do tat.. HE has to break us up 1st before HE can mould us to be more like HIM.. i know the breaking part is a tough 1.. but no worry jams.. we got one another n Jesus.. there is nothing we n Jesus cant handle together..

JaMs.. i want you to know tat if ever a day where either of you r going through a tough time n there is nothing i can do to make it better.. i pray tat GOD will allow me to go down on my knee n cry together with you JaMS to share your pain..

andrew

open the eyes of my heart lord

the song open the eyes of my heart has been playing in my head ever since church ended today. Today went they called for altar call, i went up with han. when i was there i was praying and all. but it just felt so empty. suddenly i had an urge to kneel down. i did. and i just wept uncontrollable. i dont know why but i did. its been like 3-4 years since i last cried. life for me has been so tough lately. but i have a tendency to just not think abt it. whenever anything hurtful or pain come across my life i just ignore, dont think and just keep myself occupied that i am too tired and all to even think. soccer was also a way i ran away from life. but i just wept. and really i could feel GOD's presence. it was great.

life has just been so tough, so empty, so below average. even soccer, i dont know why but its like i just feel like i am becoming so weak. Jesus please give me the strength to be strong.


this is a personal message for each and everyone of you.
spencer - i wrote for you already so i wont write again. sorry bro.

JAY ONG HOWE TJUAN- i know life is tough with studies all. but remember the times during tuition. we slack and relax and studied together. i really miss those times. i really do. bro, you are the most hardworking out of the 3 of us. bro, soccer wise you have improved tremendously as well. life is tough but you have us, remember that. bro, dont let anything bring you down cause you are a strong. bro, also i will never forget the sec 3 memories and sec 4 too. where you stood by me during the river of life days in school(our school muscial). you have touched my heart and i vow to stand by you no matter what. i did in sec 4 and sec 3. but it will not end there. thanks jay for the wonderful memories. you are still the player that keeps XYQ going.

TAY WEI HAN - bro, thanks for the memories. you have been great, really. because of you i learned the word TRUST. because of you i opened up, and because i open up everyone did too and thats why we are so crazy bros. i know life is tough and also girls are hard to get and come by. but remember you are blessed.(everyone says you look like me right). haha joking. but bro thanksss. yuo know i dont have to say much cause we been through alot. yess, we get worried we may get strains in our brotherhood but Jesus has a plan and it is always for the good. remember todays sermon. so maybe Samantha left without telling you. but its GOD's plan and it will always be for the good.

JAmS - you guys are respected and loved and also people i look up too. and no matter how bad life may get, i am here to annoy you.

open the eyes of my heart lord.
i want to see you.



morgan yeo zhanyao

cry

i'm suffering from dehydration but i still have the tears to cry.
everytime i read back and see a post, it touches me so deeply that i inevitably end up letting go of myself and start weeping uncontrollably.
before church, i can't even remember the last time i could cry and not feel ashamed of myself.
before you guys, i can't remember being so alive.
now i have more than a reason to live.
i've a reason to love.
and you can take everything else i own.
but you can never take away my brothers, the reasons why i love.

spencer.

my one week

oh man guys,

the last week has been work from 9am to 11pm everyday till thursday. two weeks ago too. its like worse than working. and when times seems tough, i am so glad i know that i have you guys with me and of course with HIM in my heart. he keeps me going even when everything seems lost.

every night before i sleep. i listen to the heart of worship & from the inside out. it just make me feel so much better.

i cant wait for soccer. i cant wait to see you guys.

oh my school had some event and they had some shoe bags to give out to the students. I KOP 3 bags for you guys. will pass it to you soon.



morgan
yeo
zhan
yao

A personal message from us to you Spencer

This post is specially dedicated from our wonderful brother named SPENCER ONG YAN HAO.

Brother, the past few years, the past memories, experience has been a crazy rollercoaster ride. It has been a crazy, journey full of up and downs but the 3 of us can rightly say that we cannot be happier to be able to ride that journey with you.

Brother, your love, concern, care for the 3 of us will never be forgotten. And now as we become brothers in Christ, the journey will soon begin, tougher but full of adventures. Dont let anything pull you down cause you are a strong brother that the 3 of us respect.

Keep holding on, with Jesus and of course the 3 of us you can find someone to talk to, someone to trust. You know the 3 of us may be busy with school but no matter how busy we are, our phone will always be opened to you for a call or chat. Look for us cause though there are aint much for us to do, we will definately do our best for our brother. Dont be shy, feel bad or guilty cause you look for us to trouble, cause i can guarentee that, the 3 of us will soon face a time when we need your help too. and we will definately will need you to be there. this time you know we are there for you brother.

We love you.

Together we will seek HIS love and overcome all troubles.

from the,
Jay
Andrew
Morgan


personal message from morgan to JAmS - the times you guys stood by me when everyone turned their backs will never be forgotten. I will stand with you guys, even if it means going to the end of the world. I would cause you guys mean alot to me.

Please pray for the innocent people in the middle east. even though 4 of us are going through a very tough time, they are facing even worse problems. Lets pray that they recieve God's grace.

Saturday slammed

it's Saturday. duh.
i'll keep this short and simple.
i've got a huge migrane bros. pray for me. bleah.
my eyes cant open properly.
cried for too long.
bleah.
nose got something wrong because of the crying too.
i broke my big toe nail.
i've got some abrasion thing on my thigh.
my neck aches.
my back aches.
my throat hurts.
:(
i feel like crap.
the physical pain is not good.
bleah.

spencer.

another wk is coming to an end

well well... guess wat.. it is friday already.. wow.. time sure past fast... this wk was another tiring and bad wk.. i think i screw up 1 of my projects.. sigh.. i dont even know how i'm going to do well this term man.. sometime i really feel tat it is all going downhill boy.. life is real hard without u JaMS bro.. cant wat for tml or sun man.. can play soccer with u JaMS.. those were the days la.. haha.. here is a reminder to you JaMS.

The road is long, with many a winding turn. That leads us to who knows where, but i'm strong, strong enough to carry you JaMS. you JaMS ain't heavy, your my brothers. So on we go, your wellfare is my concern. No burden are you to bare, we'll get there. For i know you JaMs wouldn't encumber me. It's a long long raod from which there is no return. While we're on our way to there, why not share the load, it doessn't weight me down at all. You JaMS ain't heavy, your my bro and you JaMS will never walk alone.

andrew

muggerfied

manz.. the week pass so fast. i remember on monday i ws thinking it felt like 2 hours and the weekend has passed. and now it already friday. before you noe it, another week has passed. getting more and more stressed bout a-levels. i nvr felt liddat before. i mean i'm a rather happy-go-lucky person, during o's i din feel any stress (maybe cuz i was from telok kurau, where 90% of the students cant even spell 'stress'). this few weeks, the principal and teachers have constantly been reminding us over and over again bout a-level preparation. juz yesterday my mum went to see my teacher. i went ok larz, my teacher had many good things bout me to say:) but said im not hardworking. so ive been mugging, or trying to mug everyday. principal says have to study 4hours a day and 10hours on weekends. manz.. tts difficult. i can bearly sit still for an hour, even during exams, after an hour i'd be restless.. i miss playing soccer manz.. i mean i do play soccer at the park larz, but i mean its really juz bullying all the small kids there. but then in fact if i were to complete the 4 hours of revision a day, i wont even have time to play soccer. im cutting down in alot of church activities. its sad but i guess its juz for a few more months. i think the stress is getting over my head. i dun work well under stress. lately ive been getting more and more petty with simple things, esp when it comes to my mid-yr grades. im nervious manz.. bros plz pray for me.. sometimes i dun think i can make it, and other stuff appear in my life too, juz to annoy me. i need to be refreshed during the weekends manz.. im tired and drained, my confidence is running low and my tension is over the top..

Jams

Friday's Framed

this is probably one of the Fridays in period of time whereby i've not met either of the 3 of you.
i know the week's been long for you guys. i understand the feelings of being bogged down with work or just being constantly harassed by people unable to understand how you feel or even the emotional pangs we get as human beings.

despite being as holy as my couch in the living room, i've already felt the glory of God being poured down on me. i can testify. i have felt. i have understood the meaning of my presence here. i've never spoken in this manner before, and've never even come close to feeling this way before.

it all adds up. we're not just bros because we got things in common. it wasnt just luck that we met and became pals. it was by God's sovereign hand. by His word and by His will, we have been put together. (although why of all places telok kurau sec???!!) never in my life will i find 3 people who will understand me so simply, who can read me so well, who can make me smile, cry, or feel whatever they want me to feel in a snap of their fingers. people have told me how they envy the power of our friendship and how we've grown under each other's care all this time. and i really thank God for using us to aid in each other's growth, for putting us together, for better or worse, where even death can't do us apart.

spencer

happy posting time.

despite the bright colour schemes, the posts are a little bit gloomy and SAD.
so today is happy posting day.
i stayed at home today in spite of the prospect of kayaking with pastor daphne and some others.
but... i'm scared of water la. :p and i got this huge pounding migrane.
i've been trying to sleep all day and avoid music that has any loud drumming in it.
i finished a tub of ice cream today! yay! that will probably add a few more layers of flab on me till i lose it to my next 'hyper-active' session.

DUDES! IT'S MONDAY.
don't get the monday blues k?
be happy and smile!!
eh. i'm gonna change the pics for a new image this week.
so send me some new photos, k bros?
and SMILE. please, please, pretty please with cherries on top, sprikled with lots of honey.

p.s. i still can't find my caramel chruch. :(

spencer

Footprints

this week was like a nike logo. wad i mean? at first i was down, really down, but becoz of the grace of God - His amazing grace, things started to rise. and juz like the nike logo, it rose even higher than the starting pt. i read this short story a few yrs ago but it eve fail to inspire me. i hope it'd do the same to you too..

one nite a man had a dream. he dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. across the skyflashed scenes from his life. for each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

when the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked at the footprints in the sand. he noticed tt many times along the path of his life there was onli one set of footprints. he also noticed tt it happened at the veri nowest and saddest times of his life.

this really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said tt once i decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way. but i have noticed during the most troublesome times in my life, there is onli one set of footprints. i dun understand why when i needed You the most you would leave me."

the Lord replied," my precious, precious child, I love you and I would nvr leave you. during your times of trail and suffering, when you see onli one set of footprints, it was then tt I carried you."

author unknown.

trust in the Lord always for He is faithful!
Jams

fyi

ermm this is addressed to anyone juz pasing thru and reading this blog. contrary to the pic, im NOT gay. im a normal guy packed full with testosterone! ok.. tts all.. God bless!

Jams

colourless

gone are the blue skies and, the green grass and even the brown tinge of my tan.
in are the dark and gloomy days, filled with pain and sadness in it's plain, darkest form.
jams has kinda jammed itself to a halt and things are really going topsy turvy.
from M's stress, to A's struggles and to J's sorrows, topped off with my stupidity, nothing is going right(no pun intended) at all.

but bros, remember this, when we cant sink any lower, the only way we can go is up.
so rub those tears away.
your bro here is stupid but he at least has the time to help.
i know i havent been the brightest and neither have i said the more intelligent things,
but i WANT to help.
and that's something that at least will put some colour and sparkle back into our lives.

spencer

another post

another post on the same day.
its 4 am.
goodnite brothers.
i miss you guys.

just done my presentation.
wish me luck.

god bless.

another tired day.

can you imagine.

i ended project meeting today at 2am. i am like so stoned right now, so tired.
but i cant slp.

i got a presentation tml.
i need to improve on our work.

at least today was alright.


gosh, the work is killing me.

next week would be the same.
no difference.


after projects. exams would come.
my results have not been that fantastic.

i need to put in more effort.

i dont know how am i able to plan a preglow(event), be in a management competition, projects after projects, student union crazy meetings and work. it is alright individually. but come together, they are a force to be reckon with.

just like us,
JAMS.


morgan yeo

you never treasure whats around you till its gone

well.. guess it has been a rough wk for all of us... for me.. it has been real tiring n stressful wk in poly n my exam is like in 1 mth time but the biggest shock was getting a sms from samantha.. at 1st when i saw her name i was happy until i read her message.. she is leaving for usa to study by this wkend.. the moment i read finish the sms.. my whole world seem to stop for tat sec.. i always knew tat she would 1 day leave for oversea but never this soon.. at least the earliest i though was after her A lvl..hazz.. it is so sad la or rather the word to used to sum up my feeling is regret... regret that i never spend enough time with her to know her better when she is around.. this trip she is going is at less 4 yrs n i dont even know whether is she ever coming back to spore.. that though kinda scare me.. hazz.. sometime when the bus pass by her place.. i would think wat is she doin rite now n hope tat everything is going well for her but after she leave.. that place would be empty..sigh.. i never though i would feel this way ever again for a gal since i got into poly or rather after wat happen with jo.. the gd thing was i went out with her yesterday but it was more like she accompanied me to dinner.. haha.. man does she look prettier now or maybe is it cos i know i might not see her again.. tat y i looked at her more.. well.. even knowing her for so long.. i was still nervous when i talked to her.. watever i wanted to say.. i would hav to say it once in my head be4 saying out to her.. haha..well..GOD sure hav a way to break me down.. dont get me wrong.. not tat it is a bad thing.. at least i know i still hav feeling cos i kinda got numb to it over the yrs n it has been a long time since my eyes were watery.. sad i will be tat she is leaving n knowing she might not ever come back but not for long.. life still got to go on.. at least i still got u jams around.. haha.. i thanx GOD every single day for having u jams as my bro.. to me.. it is the greatest gift ever tat HE has given me n it is something i hav learned to treasure.. i pray tat day would not come where i hav to experience the same thing as samantha with u jams cos it will really make me tear than all the teresa samantha rachel n sarah put together..

andrew

phooey

there's a part of me that just wants everything to pass by really fast; to just whoosh away and leave me done, finished.

and yet there's another part that just wants to slow down everything and savour every passing moment.

as morgan says, i've gotta be good, avoid controversy and listen less to my heart and more to God and the people around me.

all that said, i gotta get out of this comfort zone i've placed myself in and start doing something.

bros, it's been a tough month. and it continues to be. and i'm just totally grateful that i've you guys to look to when everything looks bleak.

jamS

crazy week la

its a crazy week

monday end at 1 am start at 9am
tuesday start at 11am end at 10pm
i dont know how am i gonna last.

its so crazy.
i am so tired.
i need sleep.
i need rest.

but i got so much more work to do.

glad i know i still have you guys.

dear jesus, please blessed the guy who wanted to beat me up just now.
i love you jesus.


jay - everything will be fine jay.
wei han - this week will end real soon.
spencer - BE GOOD.



will keep you guys and everyone in my prayers.

yours,
morgan

J.A.M.S

jay

hi.. juz saying hi.. so hi.. sorrie im not rally a blogger but maybe as time goes by i write more. but for now. its hi..

stupid andrew dunno how to blog.

k.. this is my 1st time blogging .. feel damn gay man but who cares man..haha.. today(10/7/06) was kinda tiring day for me.. cos of W.C. had a report writing test today.. not sure can cdo well anot.. hazz.. tis wk is going to be a stressful wk man.. all the tests n stuff.. so much stuff to catch up with.. anyway.. change the acc name n password la.. haha..

Andrew

By Spencer

ok, so the blog is not totally ready yet. (i forgot how to use most of dreamweaver's functions)
so, lets all just sit back and laugh at jay jay the gay ( i will change the pics occasionally for the sake of entertainment) while i figure out at how to brighten up this far-from-exciting blog.
the background, pink, is in tribute to jay, so please try to refrain from breaking our poor dear's heart by asking me to change the colour.
anyway, u can tell who blogs by seeing who signs off. (simply only because it'd be a torture to the other 3 to ask them to create an account and remember the password without writing it down.)
from this blog, you'll get to see us argue, discuss, saboh :) and basically rant about our daily lives.
forgive me for saying this, but we're just 4 average dudes, with highly unexciting lives, so bear with our innate ability to sift out entertainment from the most boring of things.

Spencer